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"Open the fuckin' strait you crazy bastards, or you'll be living in hell!" -President Donald Trump on Twitter X to Iran hahaha.

Tuesday: 5-26-26: It's almost official.
We are about to dump our failing restaurant.  It sucks, but sales last week were under $13,000 and that is UNACCEPTABLE.  $13k seems like a lot, but it's chump-change when payroll is $6600 and product is a few grand more.  The place needs $5000 a week above and beyond payroll and product to survive and so far we haven't even come close.  What a bunch of crap!  Oddy enough I'm at peace because I gave up a few weeks ago.  I still do my job, but I know it's only short-term because I'm either going to quit or the place is going to fail.  Sadly enough it seems the second one of those is about to happen.  I'm actually working on a sale-listing right now, but Kat hasn't seen it yet so I'm sure it will be revised some.  I've had a couple drinks so I might need to revise it as well hehe.  Here is what I have so far:
 
We have decided to sell Mad Kat's Restaurant and Bar, and we make this post with heavy hearts.  As many of you know we did sell the business before, but we had to make a comeback.  Returning was not easy, it cost a tremendous amount of money, and we did it.  Unfortunately circumstances beyond our control have forced us to once again take a step back.  Honestly we have never made any money and the place needs people who truly understand the restaurant business and what it takes to be profitable.  We work hard, we work a lot of hours each week, but the place needs more than just an owner who is willing to work 70 hours a week.  The place needs someone or a team of people who know not only the restaurant business but also the bar and entertainment side of things.  We have a large kitchen, lots of new equipment, and a stage and sound system second to none in the area.

We are only asking for enough money to pay off our current debt.  We have over a half a million dollars into the place, but we would be content letting the place go for $229,000.  That asking price may seem like a lot of money, it is a lot of money, but it's a very fair asking price considering the money we have into the place in equipment, upgrades, time, goodwill, and everything in between.  Over the past several months alone we put an additional $200,000 into the new and improved version of Mad Kat including refrigeration, audio/video, tables, chairs, a new bar, and too much else to list here.  A detailed list as well as financials are available to those of you who are seriously interested.

We currently lease over 8400 square feet, we have seating for 200 people, and the place is essentially turn-key ready to go right now.  We already did all the remodeling all you need to do is either keep it similar to what we have (great pizza, brunch, karaoke, etc) and/or turn it into your own vision.  A combination of new ideas and what we have that works and the sky is the limit.  Plenty of parking great location, great online reviews, this offer will not last long.

I don't have the ending written yet, and maybe what I wrote is good enough?  Maybe?  Hopefully!  I had a good day today and I'm not going to let my wife's dog-shit negative attitude get me down.  She was upset earlier because she's not getting enough free help at her failing restaurant.  HAHAHAHAHA!  BITCH I WORK THERE FOR FREE ABOUT 20 HOURS A WEEK, MAYBE MORE, SO I'M DONE.  Not only am I done with the restaurant but I'm also done with our marriage.  I'm actually working on my exit right now.  Plan A does not include my own death, but I don't care if I die.  However, plan B is much more workable for now and I won't share it yet because it's not the right thing to do.

YouTube popped up Queensryche Operation Mindcrime, the entire album, and it's fuckin' awesome.  If you don't like any songs on this album then I hate you.  I probably hate you anyway, but I'll hate you a little more.  I haven't heard this one in quite a while.  Best song is the last song, Eyes of a Stranger, but the whole thing is really good.  Not all-time best, but probably all-time top 25 on my personal list.  Only real blemish is the 10-minute song in the middle of the album that drags on a bit.

I went down to the ol' homestead today for another peaceful and nice visit with my parents.  When I'm down there I ask myself if it feels like home and the answer is still a solid NO.  It's a place I love to visit, but I don't want to live there.  However, I might change my mind in the future.  I dunno what will happen.  I just know something different has to happen this year if I have any hope of surviving.

It was almost hot today, but it wasn't humid so that's a win.  I went turkey hunting with Dad, but we only saw one hen up by the road at lot 87 and it was quiet.  However, quiet = win for my dumb worthless ass.  A lot of my life is loud so the quiet is great.  I sat outside some today after a pathetic 2-mile jog/walk and it was peaceful.  Then some blackflies started eating me.  What a bunch of crap!

Yeah, my life still SUCKS.

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Saturday, 5-23-2026: Memorial Day weekend = crap restaurant sales?
It's Memorial Day weekend, 3-day weekend for many people, and it's nothing special for our loser-asses. We work, we work, and we work some more. I worked last night from about 1630-0200 at the restaurant. Started off slow, as expected, but got pretty busy by the end so sales ended up good enough. Not great, but not our worst Friday and the vibe was good. Today so far sales kinda suck, but that's expected and it's better than Saturday last week. Yesterday the weather was sunny, upper 60s, but crisp with lows in the upper 30s. Not really beach/pool weather yet and I talked to a couple customers who have a camp up north but who decided not to go because it's still too cold. That helps us... for now.

I did go for a 2-mile jog yesterday after I finished doing sheetrock work at that garage and doing some admin at the restaurant. I came home for a couple hours to attempt a jog and freshen up before my work shift. I actually made it the whole two miles without having to stop and walk for any of it Oh Jesus hell ya! First time this year I've done that and I only did it a few times last year. Perfect weather helped for sure. Not too hot, not too cold, sunny, breezy, crisp. The weather is great for jogging right now as well, sunny and 67 with low humidity, but I need to take a day off from exercise. I've done pretty good with the exercise lately and my body is telling me to lay off a day. I'll get exercise tonight walking around in the restaurant during my work shift.

I don't think sales will be great today, but they need to be better than Saturday last week or we are pwned. Last weekend SUCKED for sales. What a bunch of crap! Great weather, 70s both days, so I'd say this weekend the weather isn't quite as good. We cloud up tomorrow and get a cool rain Monday. I was going to go to Warren Monday to visit the family and turkey hunt, and I might still go, but I'm thinking Tuesday will be a better option based on the forecast.

It's already almost 1330 and I need to get cleaned up and ready for a nap before my next 1630-0200 shift tonight. I can't work at that restaurant for free much longer, but for now it helps keeps the doors open so I'll keep doing it. We still need to either sell the place, close for good, or find another investor. Lately things have gone a litte better there and payroll has been reduced, but not by enough and these good-weather days sure hurt weekend sales.

I was able to spend a couple hours doing yard cleanup and mowing. Dad gave me his used zero-turn mower and the thing still works great. I used it for the first time last Saturday and again today. Lawn is growing really fast with intervals of rain showers, sun, and some warm weather. It was in the upper 30s for low temps the last two nights, but we had a couple days in the upper 80s Tuesday and Wednesday.

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Thursday, 5-21-26: The new and most likely temporary Thursday routine. Another firing, this one sad.

I've had some booze, but not too much.  I'm nearing the tail end of my Thursday, and today was kinda the norm for my loser-ass as of late.  Usually on Thursdays I work a few hours at that garage job, go to the restaurant some, play rball, and have a few drinks and enjoy some solo time in the evening while my wife works at the restaurant.  Thursday is my new favorite day of the week... for now.  I don't think it will last long because my dumb ass will need to get a job when the restaurant fails then who knows?  I might not even be a Maine resident anymore by the end of this year, but I think I still will be.  Maybe?  Hopefully!

Sales at the restaurant were overall bad last week.  What a bunch of crap!  It's weird because at times it was fantastic, but other times was a burning dumpster.  Great weekend weather last weekend really hurt.  A lot.  Daytime sales were garbage, but karaoke at night was great and trivia got really busy Wednesday 8 days ago.  I started being the trivia assistant again because even though my marriage is on the brink of epic fail Kat and I work very well together, especially during trivia.  We have a great mix of chemistry and levity and I think the crowd appreciates it.  Katherine does a good job as well, but she tends to be more stoic and I don't blame her for that because when I was 27 I probably would have been worse.  She helped in the kitchen because Wednesday 8 days ago the kitchen fell apart for a while.  What a bunch of crap!

We had to fire one of our core team members yesterday, and that was very sad.  She helped us get MK 2.0 fired up, and I really like her husband.  She's gone downhill and had put partying and drinking at the top of her list, and when you get a final written notice because you've failed and then you sleep through your alarm and can't get to your 1400 shift then bye bye.  Yeah, she didn't make it to a 2PM shift ON A WEDNESDAY.  After having two consecutive days off.  OMG WHAT A BUNCH OF CRAP!

I'm really sad about it, Kat is quite upset, and I told her just to let it go because there is no peace there.  We need to control the things we can control and everything else will fall into place, but she gets all worked up over this crap and I'm sick of it.  Our marriage and business are both on the verge of collapse so some 25-year old server deciding to party and drink isn't really at the top of our list right now.  We can replace her tomorrow, and we already did because we started a new hire yesterday.

Most women are just too emotional.  I'm glad I'm relatively emotionally impotent.  It's easier that way.  Working at a restaurant full of mostly chicks under the age of 30 = fucking circus.  I would have been loving it 25 years ago, but now I'm sick of it.  I'm looking for more peace in my life and this dumbass chick drama is the total opposite.  We do have a strong team and it's not as bad as it's been at times in the past, but it's not great either.

We went from record heat Tues and yesterday (89, 87) to the lower 60s today with a frost advisory in western and northern areas for tonight.  What a bunch of crap!  HAHAHAHA!  I was gonna turkey hunt with Pop tomorrow, but I'm too busy because my life is a toilet.  Would have been nice to do a morning hunt, visit some, have lunch, head back home.  However, I need to get more done on this garage job and we are running thin on staff at MK 2.0.  We have cut payroll, but we're walking a thin line and if it gets busy we're pwned.

I got every single piece of sheetrock installed in this room today:

^This will be the gym and plant room, and I think I'll have it painted by the end of next week.  Maybe?  Hopefully!  Then I have a stairwell to finish, trim, flooring, and it's back to the huge downstairs garage.  I was gonna apply for a "real" job, but I'll wait because I might have a lot more carpentry work incoming to last me into 2027.  Not sure yet, but I'm not sure about most things in my life anymore.  What a bunch of crap!

Oh, before I rack out, it's worth noting I had my VA follow-up last week and Dr. Biswas says I'm pretty healthy.  Is it wrong I'm not even excited about that?  I don't care either way.  I take good care of myself so I should be healthy.  However, a lot of people take good care of themselves then still get cancer or other horrible health issues.  I have been pretty good lately about taking care of myself physically.  I've started lifting weights again (barely), I'm regular with Yoga, jogging, and racquetball.  My diet is probably better than ever as well.  It's not perfect, but it's better than most.  I sleep pretty well most nights because I eat enough edible to calm my mind on most nights.  It's sad I need a pot cookie to sleep, though.  What a bunch of crap!

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